Past, Present and Promise

Created on July 23, 2026

2026

TL;DR
Another collapse

Sometimes I thought it would be further until I had no one left to talk to, but here I am, wumbling hard and neglecting all of my duties and tasks that I need to do/ overcome. Things will just be easier if I just listed out my burden and insecurities right now. People might visit this blog, or not, in the end, it’s still be lost to time, so who cares.

  1. Financial burden: I constantly think about how would I live/ sustain after leaving home. What would I do, where would I be, how would I manage… Is there an ultimate answer to all?

  2. Dream and Passion: I’ve been pondering this so much time that I didn’t get the chance to actually do it. So I would stop thinking about this, not like entirely, but leaning more into practical results.

  3. Act of Jealousy and Peer Pressure: Some of my friends got successful in their ways, I don’t know if there’s any trade-offs or cost it would take, but I do possess a reducing anxiety about me not being as fluxious and fruitful as they’d be. I only have 3 more courses left at HCMUS and then I will stop caring about them. The isolation has made me into a spiteful and insufferable person.

  4. Societal Relationship: None, I’m well-acknowledge how brittle and desensitized I’ve become in my own relationships. Nothing will last. (Some would intercept here, saying: Oh it’s your belief made you said so, bla bla, it doesn’t work like that for themselves). Well I do believe that I’m currently withdrawing from any relationship that I found little to none beneficial. Sorry it’s not you personally, dear people that I’ve stopped talking with. (And wouldn’t you want to fix it?) Well, I’d like to but I don’t have any basis right now to advance